|I guess I am a Vic Whore!
||[Sep. 29th, 2004|12:03 am]
Hey everyone, just joined this community. So here's a little intro. I'm 19, and my "Drug of choice" is obviously pain pills. I've lost friends because of this addiction and that hurts...Knowing these people I had known so long would just give up on me like they did and leave me out in the cold. I was just like a problem to them that they got rid of for their own good.|
I started taking pills after my b/f broke up with me a year and a half ago. I didn't need love anymore if I had pills. It was like an awesome substitue and a great way to handle stress. When I got a new b/f I forgot about the pills until that relationship crumbled 7 months later. So of course I went back to what I knew would 'help' me.
They make me feel better...I love the euphoric high we all have experienced. Why can't we feel like that all the time? It's the best feeling. However, I feel so HORRIBLY guilty taking these pills... I think of Requiem for a Dream, and I don't want my life to end like those people's did. I don't want to be poor and alone or end up hurting my body...
My addiction isn't as bad as it used to be, but it's still there. It's so damn easy to get ahold of pain pills and so tempting, even if I try to resist. It's like seeing candy on the top shelf of a cupboard, telling yourself 'NO' but you always end up giving in later. "Just one, and no more, I promise" But you can't have just one.
Personally I think Percocet is better than Vics... for some reason I get sick off of Vics at times. Sometimes I get sick other times I'm perfectly fine.
Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can ease the nausea from taking Vics??
Thanks in advance,